Who am I?

I often try to fit myself into neat little boxes, only to have to try to stick an unruly limb or inclination back inside. Perhaps more than boxes, all my roles and leanings intertwine to make up the fabric of my life.

The threads include:

• wife, married for almost 10 years to a teacher man
• mom of two wonderful children, Sweet Pea is almost 3 and Scooter is almost 1
• follower of Christ whose life journey has taken her away and back, with stops through four Protestant denominations, Islam, Catholicism, and “head-in-the-sand-ism”
• teacher of middle elementary students (before kids) and math tutor currently
• aspiring amateur gardener and chef
• Flybaby
• voracious researcher

 

Experiencing God

Today I started the
Experiencing God study by Henry T. Blackaby and Claude V. King. As I was sitting on the floor with my 10-month old trying to grab my pen, my workbook, my Bible, I realized how often I separate my faith life from my “real” life, when in all actuality they are one and the same. How I long to be able to say with full confidence that my real life is my faith life and my faith life is my real life! I see this so clearly in the lives of others, but often have assumed that they have something I don’t.

It really does just start with me getting out of the way and letting God work in me, doesn’t it? With setting aside my own notions of how life should go, and tuning in to what God would have me do next, even if I can’t see the whole picture or end result.

I was thinking as I read today’s study that I don’t even follow someone else who is driving without getting directions from them first! Fear of getting lost along the way? Fear of becoming separated? Fear of being out of control? This lesson of not needing to know it all is a deep one, and God has been using many angles to try to get me to really learn it.

Is anyone else doing the Experiencing God study?